Resistance, in Yellow | Ann Kathryn Kelly

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Yellow rose topiary, big blooms billowing atop ball, ruffled roses commanding attention. Admiration. A riotous ball of yellow, like a sun that cheers, like a yolk that nourishes, a lemon that quenches, like a spreading feeling that warms. Armored in leather gloves, I snip and shape and ooh and ahh. It gives and gives, summer into autumn, a profusion of scent, this Rosa Hybrid cultivar that lives up to its name: “Happy Go Lucky.” Before first frost I wrap my beauty in burlap against winds that blow, mounded piles of snow that grow and eat bark-brown mulch, swallowing summer. I look out my kitchen window on a February morning and see burlap bent to the ground and I imagine the worst: a snap, my denuded topiary falling under the weight of swirling white, landing under burlap. Waiting to be found. My yellow sun in the back yard no more, like the one in the sky that left and won’t return. But, then! March morning, thankful thaw, I see the burlap once more standing tall. My yellow sun, risen again! I think of yellow often these days, bold and brave, a yellow-and-blue resistance halfway around the world. Today’s David rising against Goliath. I think of my yellow rose topiary, standing, falling, standing again. A tiny resistance in my back yard under blue sky. Yellow and blue, in nature. In a flag. Never say die.


Ann Kathryn Kelly’s writing has appeared in a number of literary journals. https://annkkelly.com | Twitter and Instagram: @annkkelly

I’ve Got It | Ali Russell

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i’ve got it
i have the solution
a very small but powerful anesthetic
to knock me out for 5 or 10 minutes
every time I enter the public eye
then
everyone could gather
they can look and stare at my body
they can poke and prod my body
they can whisper about my body
twist their faces
widen their eyes
ask their questions
make their assumptions
compare themselves
express their pities
tell each other how inspired they are
get bored and
move on
then
i can go about my business


alas,
i suppose it’s not perfect
considering
i would be unconscious for a lot of life
ultimately not worth it
but damn would it be less painful


I am a middle school teacher, mom and a double below the knee amputee. twitter: @aliigirl

Accidental Black and White, Autumn | Carla Sarett

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Although I am wearing
black and white,

I am not a woman who wears
black and white!

Believe me:
I am not that woman.

My starkness is an accident,
an anomaly

you mistake
for design.

And that dagger
in the doorway

is not my idea
of cheerful

although I am wearing
black and white.


Carla Sarett is a poet and fiction writer based in San Francisco. Her first poetry collection, She Has Visions (Main Street Rag) is out in November. She’s not always silly. Twitter: @cjsarett

And Home | Kristóf Csölle

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Fine. I could tell you how my skin – its only birthmark: starless nights – is yet followed by thunder.

I could tell you how it’s always been – just me and Adam, just the missing ribs and vipers.

I could tell you how, when left alone, a country is just sapphires and nimbus clouds under UV-coated tempered glass. Like a mind, isolated.

I could tell you how, like all good lightning, I strike brightest from the ground up.

I could tell you how I own near 6 pounds of titanium that was once the closest thing I’ve known to love.

I could tell you how you and I are negatives of a blurry photograph, shot during a revolution. I, the flag, and you, the flame.

People walking barefoot on broken glass on asphalt.

I could tell you how I own near 6 pounds of titanium that I carried in my body for four pregnancies’ worth.

I could ask what use is blood being fluid if it can’t be used as gasoline.

I could tell you how when left, alone, the human is an animal leading itself to slaughter.

I could tell you that this means nothing to me. I am empire and death, bred beautiful and castle-ready.

I could tell you how time is just another skin.

The skin is just a border.

And a border the anticipation of a cut.

I could tell you how I know I will kill one day.

I could tell you the sensation of titanium on bone.

I could tell you how you are the weapon.


Light Green | Charlie Mills

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Light green as the lime trees we grew among,
my memories are tinted, tainted, stained.
Green with envy, I remember I hung
around. I remember all of the pain
just as I remember the waiting game
I played. My carpet grew a hole, footsteps
wearing it thin like my patience. Your name
still brings a lump to my throat. Did your footsteps
fade as mine did? Did you grow tired of it?
The pacing, I mean? Do you watch the stars
and think of our dream to be astronauts?
I write. You program. I feel and you are
calculating. I watched an empty chair,
an empty door. I breathed the empty air.


I am a PhD student at Royal Holloway. I write speculative fiction and poetry about boundaries, crossings, and the post-apocalypse. Twitter: @ctmpoet. Website: www.ctmpoet.wordpress.com

Acorns’ Love | Fabiano Colucci

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The two of them have been making out for a long time. To them, it seemed like there was just the two of them, and it was feeling so intense, so amazing.

He was holding her as tight as possible, feeling their bodies caressing each other at every kiss.

“So, what happens next?” he asked.

She chuckled. Another kiss. “I don’t know, what if we find that out?” she asked back. Another kiss.

He stopped for a few moments, admiring her features. “You’re so beautiful.” She blushed again, and kissed him again.

“How can someone be this beautiful, Acorn?” he asked, stroking her face.

As they kept making out, however, she laughed, then pulled back her head. “Wait,” she said.

He was confused, but she caressed his face, still laughing.

“Do you know why they call me Acorn?” she asked. He frowned his head.

So, out of curiosity, he decided to ask. “Why do they call you Acorn?”

As he waited for an answer, he caressed her body. He was ready for hours and hours of moments like that one.

Her eyes widened. Then, she started giggling quietly to herself. She had a cute laugh, and he was going for another kiss.

However, before their lips could touch, she popped like a bubble.

He widened his eyes, out of confusion. She was not there anymore. Yet, as he looked down, he noticed something. It was an acorn, so he picked it up.

“What is…” he started saying, before realising it. “Oh my, I’ve been making out with an acorn this whole time!” he exclaimed, before laughing so loudly he got everyone else’s attention.

“Well, that is so funny, because…” he started saying, as he too popped like a bubble, revealing that he was an acorn as well.

Then, they were close to each other, even in acorn form, as the Sun was rising. They were all alone together, and it felt so good.

Suddenly, they both burst into laughter.

“What is going on?” he asked.

She giggled. Then, finally, she answered him.

“It’s an acorns and rainbows joke.”

He looked at her, puzzled. “What kind of joke is that?”

She, however, did not reply. Acorns are seeds. She laughed again, as the two of them continued to make out in the jungle.

Acorns. Silly and fun.

How did something like that happen? Even the monkeys stopped swinging around, scratching their heads as the parrots were chanting songs about rainbows and giggles.

“Tell me more about that joke,” he asked her, as he held her hand tightly.

“Well, much like rainbows, we can make every colourful thing happen.”

“I see,” he said. Then, a tiger picked them up, putting them in its back. “Now, let’s ride away!” they both said. They held hands as they ran through the jungle.

No one else in the animal kingdom gets this joke. Everyone else looks at them with confusion, or giggles. But not them.


An Italian student who loves to create and learn

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noitisnarT | Fabio Leba

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Absolution, unreachable
The people of Nevermore
Suddenly, were there
They always had been
But we didn't care
We didn't want
We didn't know
We did know
We were wanted
He didn't care
They didn't understand
Alas, the fundamental question
The axiom of the controversy
The baseline of attack
The sin we didn't want
The sin they were proud of
The miracle we tried to achieve
The miracle, son of abhorrence
Shall it be forgotten?
Negative, as it always should have

Absolution doesn't come without price
Absolution doesn't come
Are we ready though, to pay?
Are they ready though, to accept?
I know I'm not

I’m just a random Italian guy who writes sometimes things for fun. Not that interesting to be honest If you somehow want to contact me, my Discord is An Average Italian#9924

I Wake Up | Akhila Mohan CG

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I wake up
one Onam morning
with my loving but
non-Mallu husband.

We make love,
not out of love
like on other days,
but to extend our lineage,
not out of desire,
but to protect ourselves
from the ostracisation,
not from people unknown,
but our own loved ones.

A few phone calls pour in
asking . . .
how am I celebrating
the festival.

I say, ‘Nothing special . . .’

For this,
I get some preaching
about how should I celebrate the day . . .
and my womanhood,
slogging the whole day
in the kitchen
and worshipping the Lord,
for whom I am just a woman,
an untouchable.

Post this,
I fail at trying to
decipher a few poems
by a respected Indian poet,
from his book
lying unopened for days
beside my bed.

I open my Insta,
just to learn that
he too has followed me back.

‘Now what?’ I think.
How do I tell him
that
I didn’t understand
his poems
just like this
life?


Akhila Mohan CG is a poet & writer who likes writing peoms and short stories. Her works have been published in literary platforms including Scarlet Dragonfly, Whiptail Journal, Failed Haiku, & others.

Poor Excuse for Dreaming | Karen Keefe

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Who is the patron saint of a fool?
The gullible need a protector.
I figure this weakness in me
comes from that thing with my eyesight.
Seeing double
it’s hard to know what to focus on.


I should have listened to that Oh-oh sounding in my skull.
I came home on my birthday
To find a pretty face-stranger
to me
just a friend from work
to you,
in our house
here for supper.


Back then
in a time of run us over inflation
high unemployment
landlords lacking any mercy
we frequently shared supper
with friends and friends of friends.
But how


she knows where we keep the forks
why no surprise when she
asks you, “do you like the tablecloth I chose.”
My father shoots me a look.
I hold my breath
watch the show
and pray.


Risking all.
With you I always risked it all,
believed the best,
bet on our future happiness and
missed the signs.
Guess you always had an escape plan.
Did you always have an escape plan?


But what harm can come to us today?
This is a rare event,
there is even enough money to make a cake
and my brother is in town.


He is watching the show too, his hand in his pocket
tumbling his knife with his fingers
rocking on the balls of his feet.
My brother sees things straight.
He does not hesitate.


Seeing him
I do not hesitate anymore.
No one is looking at me.
I slip out the back door
and run
across the garden
to the shed.
Inside behind the potting bench
I find my wings.
Looking down from the sky
I don’t need saints or dread.


Karen Keefe is a featured poet in Anti-Heroin Chic. Recently published by Silver Birch Press, she has poetry forthcoming in the Winter Issue of POETiCA REViEW and in Poetry as Promised. @karen_keef

Ajax minus the violence | Darlene Salazar

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I fucked up. I like really, really fucked up. I started the grad school program of my nerdy
dreams last year, it feels weird even just saying it! The start of the program kicked off
with no shortage of self-reflection and asks of personal discoveries through new ideas in
philosophy, anthropology, art and literature- I was enthralled. To add to the excitement
this was right at the time I started coming out after 28 years. And while it continues to be
exciting (literally every single day, feeling more happy and confident knowing who I am),
when it first happened it was magic on steroids because… I was completely in love with
someone I can only describe as quite actually the girl of my daydreams. Writing about
everything was easy and the words flowed out of me, not just for class but for her.


It’s been 2 months since she told me she wasn’t ready for all of it and 1 month since I
last saw her since moving cities for a new job. Everything about the somewhat quick
decision to move has felt so good and true in every aspect of my life except for her. Her,
and my (what I’m formally calling it as of now) writer’s block that’s seemed to
accompany my move but it’s only now just occurred to me why.


In writing a class assignment, (they are literally called Reflection Papers) I was writing
about using leadership concepts discussed in class material being used as blueprints
for my own personal life, AKA dealing with this weird flirty just friend space I’m
navigating with my now ex while we live 3 hours apart. I didn’t go into this amount of
detail but I said I felt like I was stuck between a rock and a hard place. Yes, like the
common saying but also because of the song by H.E.R.. And because drawing on
different forms of art and literature as comparison and connection is encouraged, I
made a footnote, quoting the entire line.. insert quote here


And I lost it. I broke into tears like I am again as I write this except as soon as my face
started to make that ugly scrunched goblin face you can’t fight, I shouted, “FUCK. I
FUCKED UP.”


I can’t write shit about the comparisons to my personal life because it’s very
inconvenient to want to cry every time you think about writing something that isn’t filled
with a joy that spills out onto the paper. Or when you think about how one of the sources
of that joy needed some space so you said, “hold my beer” and accepted a job in a
different city 2 weeks later to make sure they got enough space. And now that joy feels
so far out of reach and when you write, your heart muscles still tell you to say all the
lovely things about her because maybe just maybe


I can’t finish that line, I’ve come back to it a couple times and it will remain as is.
Now I am tired again from all the crying and I don’t think I’m going to finish this paper.
I’m already so behind and while I’m making progress, it’s slow and painful. A funny thing
I heard today keeps floating in my mind, “you’ll have some calluses on your soul” as
ridiculous and cliche as it sounds, pushing through the discomfort of writing while
thinking of someone and feeling like your heart is physically aching with each line- it
feels better at the end. For a little bit at least initially but it feels better over time, not just
in little spurts. Your muscles have been stretched and not just the heart (cheesy I know
but I mentioned it earlier so it makes sense, stay with me I’m going somewhere with
this) but the ones in your hands and your legs holding you up at your standing desk
because it helps you focus just a little bit more sometimes.


The legs that walked you back to your desk, crying, stomping and pounding your feet
like a child not getting their fucking way. And you do feel like a child because you have
everything else but in some ways that just makes you want it even more- that joy that’s
so special it fills all the empty spaces that the rest of life leaves in between the cracks.
To fill it and make it so you’re always walking in it everywhere you go. You remember
the feeling and then you cry and you write and you cry and you write.


Then you remember a point you were trying to make earlier about feeling like Ajax
minus the violence and you remember some good thoughts you had that actually come
out on paper so you actually have a paragraph more than you did this morning and it’s a
tiny step but a potent one.


On Plagiarism and Thievery | Emily Teague

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I have this fear of accidentally plagiarizing.
I wouldn’t do it on purpose
I’m a little bit dumb though
So I can see it happening
I just pick up words and phrases like dandelions and
They float around in my head
Detached from where I found them
Waiting to be spit out everywhere
Is everything
And we’re all using the same words
Statistically its probably just a matter of time

Before I give it all up
I write all this stuff
Poetry prose unstructured manic nonsense my fucking grocery list
It just feels like it all happened already
Hyper familiar déjà vu
I’m convinced I stole it
I mean I wrote it
But is it mine?

So I’ve been thinking about plagiarizing
And ownership
And inspiration
And how we have to take to create
How artists and scientists are really similar actually
Beyond the obvious
Universal human experience shit

We’re all thieves
We have to be
So I really don’t want to plagiarize
I’ll just borrow a few things
I won’t take all the credit.

“The Universe Is Not Locally Real,
and the Physics Nobel Prize Winners Proved It”
Do I have to explain it?
Real doesn’t mean real
Local doesn’t mean local
Sometimes measuring creates something immeasurable
Even geniuses are wrong sometimes
And, yes, it does matter what we believe.


You can find the author twiddling her thumbs or falling off her bike in the middle of the woods. Good luck!

a dinner with my parents | Sol Lopez

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Tonight we’ll feast
Feast upon the meal our mothers have buried for us
We’ll laugh and idle away the hours
Our hunger will be filled and our lies emptied
Tonight we’ll dance, dance away the errors of our mercy
Tonight we’ll forget, forget the targets on our backs
And bask in the glory
baby, tonight we’ll be gods, puppeteers to our manipulation
We’ll pioneer a new age,
A wave of redemption
Upon the labors of our own backs,
We’ll feast, my love
And with nothing but our eased laugh, we’ll live.


Sol, being an avid writer, documents the many emotions that come with growing up detailing her personal experiences through self-discovery, heartbreak, and queerness.

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